The Narrow Path

 I am starting to see that writing these usually is not for others but more for me. I've really noticed this on the last blog that I wrote how the Holy Spirit used it to teach, lead, guide, and even convict me. I am truly grateful I have such an amazing Comforter.                          In the last blog, I wrote about the 4 soils. The one that got me was the seed that fell among the thorns. It was choked out by the cares of the world...  I have always been a person who was very content with very little. Not really needing super expensive, flashy, things. Up until recently. And this is the progression that God has shown me. Also His guiding light throughout it.                About two months ago, my truck started having this issue. This truck was my first vehicle that I bought for myself. It was a pretty good truck. It had quite a few smaller things that we...

 In my last blog, I mentioned a parable. This parable is in Matthew 13:1-9. Last night while I was praying, this came to my mind. I constantly am praying for people to come to know the Lord, that God would put workers in their path to share with them the message.  Now, I am reminded of a couple months ago, I was in my car, driving home from meeting a friend at the park. The Lord put something on my heart that woke me up a bit. I was praying for my family member's hearts of stone to be replaced with a hearts of flesh. BOOM. The Lord decided to just lay it on me. He said, "Why would I do that when there is nobody to plant anything there?" I try to but it can be hard  for me to do when it comes to my own family for some reason.   The Parable of The Four Soils Matthew 13:1-9 Later that same day Jesus left the house and sat beside the lake. A large crowd soon gathered around Him, so He got into a boat. Then He sat there and taught as the people stood on the shore. He...

                     Recently, I facilitated a connect group at my church titled "Not A Fan." It was a group I participated in awhile ago in Montana. And I remember it impacted me so much while I was attending. The book "Not A Fan" is by a Pastor named Kyle Idleman. I've read the book many times. Sometimes reading it very fast and sometimes it takes me a few months just to finish the hundred pages. It is such a good book. The group was about being a follower of Jesus. And tonight that is what I want to write about.                          Tonight after going to watch the last part of The Chosen season 5, I came home and completed some cleaning. I was going to just go to bed because it was 11:30 pm by the time I finished that. But The Spirit was not allowing that. "Just one chapter of Matthew." So I was obedient and picked up where I left off. Chapter 13...

  Walking with God is not easy. In fact it is a process. A process that has taken me about ten years and still is not easy. I struggle with it daily. Sometimes I struggle to believe the things that are written in the Bible. Sometimes I think those things are written for other people, just not for me. I love the Lord but sometimes I get confused. I know what it says but it seems to contradict itself. Where do I fit in to all of this? How am I supposed to live my life to please God? So many questions are always going through my head. As I attempt to find answers, I just wind up more confused. I seek godly counsel, and hear things like, “Be still and know that He is God,” or “Just trust Him.” I would say, “Okay! I can do that!” Then I get home and cannot seem to figure out how. I know there is a lot of pride in me. That sometimes pretends that I have it all figured out. People will ask me questions and I give them answers like, “Just trust God.” or “Be still and know that He is the Lo...

 Does God ever just give you a verse? One that just resonates with your heart? It constantly stays on your mind as you try to figure it out? Psalm 90:12 So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts to wisdom. That's the one. It has been one that pops up time and time again.  I hear it. I read it. But do I truly understand it?  As I was watching a movie today, laid up on my couch, the Lord brought this to me again. The movie I was watching was "Finding Faith." It has been a hard couple weeks for me, but then these problems seem so small compared to others. In this movie, this ladies mother died of a sudden stroke that left her in a coma. BOOM. Teach us to number our days.  We all like to pretend that we are in control of our lives. We make sure we wear our seat belts. We don't drive in poor weather conditions. We don't go down dark alleys at night time. We carry bear maze when we go hiking. We buy guns for protection.  BUT.... We are not in contro...

            I have not done this for awhile, but as I was spending time with the Lord this morning, I felt I needed to. Yesterday I had a connect group and some conversations that got me thinking. Also I was baptized on Sunday and since then my testimony has been heavy on my heart. It is amazing how you can go have a conversation with someone in the faith and walk away with a new boldness to step into the will of God.      Right now, I have some one on my heart that is pulling away from God. It is disheartening to watch as it happens and not be able to do anything about it. I am learning right now that I just have to step back and let God be God. Which can be so hard sometimes. OK, a lot of the time. Me trying to play God is just me saying, "God, I don't trust you."      In this connect group, we are talking about what it looks like to be a follower of Jesus. A lot of it, is obedience when He asks something of you. When He...